Friday, October 31, 2008
BUSY!!!
Sorry i will not be updating so soon because of the super heavy pack schedule i have now!!
Posted at: 10/31/2008 12:19:00 PM
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Sorry I Hurt You
I really had a sleepless night, moving here and there on my bed and thinking about what happen to us that night. I least expected it, I experienced the worst headache ever, all I could hear was my heart beating much faster than it ever has. I cursed my stars that night, as my expectation for the night was a beautiful ending , but it ended in a far different way that made my heart choke with tears of losing something...
I want you to know that I never meant to hurt you, even though it may seem that way sometimes. I know that I hurt you last night. I never meant for you to feel that way. I thought of you many times during the night, wishing you were by my side.
I talked about you to everyone and told them how lucky I was with you. You mean the world to me. I am always so lonely when there are long periods of time between the times we speak. I always find myself trying to keep busy because if I sit still for too long, my heart begins to ache and I feel your absence. At night, I make believe that you are beside me, caressing me, holding me, loving me. I want to feel you inside me.
For now, I know sorry is just a word, but for what it's worth I am very sorry for hurting you last night. It pains me too and I'm really confused about everything. I love you so much and never think of i will forget u ever
No longer a man of honour
Posted at: 10/16/2008 02:24:00 AM
Monday, October 13, 2008
My cheerleading journey at wildcards
How many lib are there in this photo?? (4)
Any idea which base is me??(3rd from right)
Me and best partner
My first lib (me and joline)
Next aim-lib best partner and perfect my lib!!!
Posted at: 10/13/2008 10:28:00 PM
Sunday, October 12, 2008
U are my only reason
You're not one of the reasons why life is worth living, not one of the reasons why I'm happy all day long, neither why I'll never feel alone - you'll never be one of the reasons, because you'll always be the only reason ....
Posted at: 10/12/2008 01:04:00 AM
Friday, October 10, 2008
10 Sep And Forever
Dear Jasmine,
It has been one month, one whole month and forever. Forever I know you'll be here in my heart, in my arms, and when years go by I want you to know how much I love you each and every day.
You are a miracle, each and every day with you I treasure in my heart. Every beat of my heart fills more and more with your love. You are the most beautiful person in the world, inside and out. You filled that hole in my heart that has been missing for years. I love you; thank you. I hope I make you as happy as you make me.
To me, Love, you are perfect. Perfect to me, everything about you. The beauty inside of you is miraculous. It is beyond what nature could ever possess. You are more beautiful than anything I have every seen in my life. Just take a look in the mirror and you'll know what I am talking about.
I'm not going to say I love you, you should have no doubt in your mind that I do.
The little things you do reassure me that you love me too. The 3 words that we say to each other on occasions that are right give me the exact same feeling of when we hold each other tight. The scent of you when you come in close for a kiss and the fact that I can't even walk past you without a touch of your skin first, that's what love is.
Whenever we fight, and let's face it we do, the only thought that's in my mind is how much I care to even argue with you. When you get so low sometimes that even I find it hard to lift you up, just please remember that I'll always be there to give you a hug, to tell you it's alright and to wipe the tears away from your eyes.
This love letter is not just for the times we've talked and I found myself anticipating the next word that fell out of your mouth, or for the times you said that you loved me more than life itself, this love letter is to thank you for being you and letting me be part of your life, for not building a wall that I couldn't see through, for telling me I'm beautiful when I feel so ugly, for sticking with me through good and bad. With all these things you do for me, is there really any reason to say 'I love you' when I know already and shouldn't I even bother saying it to you when I've already built my world around you.
I just want to thank you and thank whoever sent you for me to put my faith in you.Thanks for being there, thanks for loving me, thanks for being you. I love you with everything I am. No poems, no words, no letters, no gifts, nothing can ever express how much I love you, but you know how much that is. This letter is just a patch on what I feel for you; the rest is a private conversation between our hearts.
Love always,
Kahau
Posted at: 10/10/2008 12:33:00 AM
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Rules??
In every aspect of life i count it as a game. A game which have certain rules to follow. Sometimes it is the best to follow the rules of the game and u will be safe. Nothing is going to happen cause u never break any of them.....But the game will be boring ...Once in a while breaking some rules may be fun and u can experience something new.
Be it in my studies, relationship, cheer, work or family should i just follow the rule of the game??? Should i or should i not??? I had given so much out and recieve nothing in return... I feel so empty...I dont know how long i can last giving ...
Posted at: 10/08/2008 12:49:00 PM
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
Loving you
Today is the day which i dare to say i feel i was so love by u.....By your action...By your words!!!
Since i choose you i will accept what u are and who u are....Now i truly understand love can be express in different ways. Love is not about all those kissing we had , those hug we had ......It is about the time we spend together seeing the other partner smiling that is the sweetest love....Since i promise u and give u my word i will follow it!!!!! Cause i am
MAN OF HONOURTime will prove my love to you and cement my place in your heart forever. For time will give me the credibility and the believability that I need to convince you to want to spend the rest of your life with me. That I am worthy of such a commitment from you
Posted at: 10/07/2008 01:37:00 AM
Sunday, October 5, 2008
Weak by a lot
After i so call "recover" from my right wrist injuries, i feel that i am weaken by alot in terms of strength and i can no longer toss flyer to hands that smoothly anymore....Not to mention i totally lost the feeling of tossing nellie which is my best partner to hands!!! Sorry nellie..... What is wrong with me?? I dont know i really dont know......UNTIL NOW I DONT KNOW WHY MY WRIST GET INJURY....Why is this happening to me when my road to cheerleading just starting to pick up.....Worse of all, my parent dont even support me joining cheerleading at all...Will the support me just for once at my performance???
Can i still manage to do my dream stunt or at least a lib outside takasimaya at 1.1.2009 ???
Can i still take stunt video with Terence on 13.12.2008 ???
Can i still take stunt video with Gary on 4.12.2008 ???
Can i ???
Posted at: 10/05/2008 01:09:00 AM
Thursday, October 2, 2008
Feeling
Empty
Empty
Empty
Empty
Empty
Posted at: 10/02/2008 12:19:00 AM