Tuesday, August 10, 2010
1 Year 11 Months
Aug 10th, today is our 1 year 11 months... Its been so long already. This r/s have been like a roller coaster ride ups and downs. I dont know what is wrong with us but it seem like we are quarreling more and more, the message and words from you hurt me a lot. Break up is all you want, i guess you have no more feeling for me anymore.
I am lost now what should i do?
It's been so long and I feel so lost, and we said this would last no matter the cost. We tried so hard and pushed so far, but why do I feel so torn apart? I hung my head and began to cry. Why do I continue to just waste time, after all I tried. I've fallen, out of love with you.My heart goes up in flames and I douse it with teardrops
Posted at: 8/10/2010 03:49:00 PM
Friday, July 10, 2009
10 months =)
When I am with you, I feel alive. You bring to me a happiness that no one else ever could. You bring to me a love I have never known before. I could not imagine what my life would be like without you. You have touched my heart in ways no one could ever comprehend. I love being with you and I want to spend the rest of my life with you.
Every day I wake up thanking God for you. You have given me so much, and I don't know if I will be able to give back all that you have given me. You have been my guiding light when I was lost. You have been my comforter through all my trials and sorrow. You have been my friend, best friend, my everything.
Sometimes I feel lost and out of touch, but when you’re there, I feel safe. Your voice soothes me. I could sit here and try to tell you just how I feel, but I can't find the words other than I am ecstatic we met and have gotten together after all we've gone through.
I want to tell you that the love I have for you is undying. It is a love that is strong and enduring and will stand the test of time. I truly feel blessed that you have become a part of my life, and I cannot wait for the day that we can join our lives together. I want to lie next to you at night and hug you in my arms. I want to wake to your beautiful smile. I want to share in your joys and sorrows. I want to be your everything, because you are everything to me.
I promise to always love you and always hold you in my heart. I will always be here for you when you need me, and I will love you no matter what life brings us. You are my soul mate, and I vow to love you all eternity. I love you, Jasmine neo =[}
Posted at: 7/10/2009 02:22:00 AM
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
I will be strong
When i was lost, no one to turn to, starving, worrying about lots of thing all day long. I was just too piss off with my life. I just want to give up. A girl name Jasmine Neo came. She gave me the hope to carry on. The strength to stand up again and this time round, i know i will not be going through this along.
Dear thanks for what u have done for me. I am very very touch. I did tear a little when give me that surprise even though i somehow know it le... Haha can't be blame, is our chemistry too strong le. Telepathy!!!! That subway is the most deciduous i have ever ate because inside i can feel there is a extra ingredient call love. The love you have for me. Dear thanks a lot. Next time will be both of us eating at ...... A secret!!! WAHAHA. U will find out soon.
The reason why i chase after the bus was because i want to spend just a little more time with u. Just a little while more. I did manage to spend 20sec more with u even though u are sitting in the bus while i was chasing after the bus. The expression on your face when u look back makes me want to run even faster. Dear rest assure that no matter which part of this world we are living or where u will be running to, i will go after u. Don't u remember i still haven't fulfill my promise to you. 17 storey here i come!!!
Posted at: 6/23/2009 12:59:00 AM
Thursday, June 18, 2009
A great day
Today dear and me went to seng kang there to swim. It is like finally because it has always been jasmine wish to wear her bikini since that day i bought it for her. So after quite some time her wish came through. She was so excited until she FORGOT to bring her camera out so that means no photo for the day but we manage to take one with her phone before her phone die off. My phone is no need to say de spoil until don't know what le no need say got camera a not. Got camera but SPOIL !!!! Sian!!!
I went to pick her up at her place as usual she is still packing her stuff even though i am late. Which means she is even LATER!!! Wahaah, we are the not so early couple! Took 161 from her house to compass point and change to bus 372 to our destination. We went to buy our tickets. The funny thing is mine only cost 80cents hers cost $*.** haha. I laugh at her and she give me that laugh some more i all puck all your hair away face. SCARIER!!!!
Get change and first thing we did in the pool was for me to teach jasmine how to SWIM. Even though she say" i know how to swim a little bit of breaststroke ". She show me her swimming style and it is like now i see u now i don't. Because she swim like a submarine. I taught her the hands movement of the breaststroke. She did great ! After a few round of teaching she master it. She was over the moon and say "yes i can swim le!!!!" Haha silly girl. We take a break in learning the breaststroke as dear want to go play around. We went to sit on the slide. At first i didn't want to play because i SCARE of height. Yes u are right KAHAU is scare of height! She keep asking me to play with her .So i take out my guts and give it a try. To my shock it was fun and we play twice!!!! Hehe.
After that we went to the baby pool to play around and relax ourself. Seeing all the kids running around playing happily in the water and seeing my dear jasmine enjoy herself just make me feel so bless. It doesnt matter how much smiles i put on others but just a smile on dear will be good enough for me.
After all those enjoyment it is back to teach dear how to master next half of the breaststroke. It is my aim to teach her breaststroke and make sure she master it today. I taught her the movement of the legs which is also call "frog kick". She is get it after a few trys! Hooray!!! Now lets put the 2 parts together. You may think it will be quite a challenge but not for jasmine. She did it again after a few try. She keep on practice and practise. While she was practising i went to did a 25m dive closing my eyes using dolphin style. In the end i did reach the end but with my front tooth chip off a bit! Because i can't see and i hit my teeth against the floor of the swimming pool. Don't ask me how i did it because i also don't understand. Now i have weird front teeth. Instead of laughing at me, jasmine show her concern and she keep asking me are u OK dear. At that point of time i felt so xin fu because i know someone in this world cares for me and it is from the bottom of the heart. Thank you my dear.
End of the day she manage to swim one-third of the pool by herself. This is a very good achievement. In a day she manage to learn breaststroke and can swim by herself. This is her first time learning how to swim and her first SWIM after so many years. All this shows that nothing is impossible. As long as you try and never give up u can do it. I am very very proud of her. Just a few more visit to the pool, i can swim side by side with you le. Jia you.
Went back to compass point to have our dinner and send her back home. Piggy back her from her house bus stop all the way up to her house by climbing the stairs. Why by the stairs because it is our secret . It is also my training for my future!!!! Haha.
Dear i hope u enjoy today. Rest well and sleep tight. Sleep dreams!
Kahau love you always.
P.S it is 4.08am le time for me to sleep if not dear dear going to kill me !!!!
Posted at: 6/18/2009 03:15:00 AM
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Best in me
My love, my life, my dreams, this is what you mean to me. For 9 months now, you have been the motivation behind every breath I take. My whole life ruled by thoughts of you - of us.
The day that I met you was the day my life and thoughts on relationships changed forever. To fall in love with a ladt who I can just be myself with, who brings out a part of me that I always knew existed but could never find, is just the most amazing feeling I could ever have. The feelings and emotions that you are able to evoke from me are for you alone - a part of me that I want you to have, something that no one else in my life has ever received before.
I know I can't give you the whole world, but I can promise you I will always love you. My heart is yours, and even though I know I’ll make mistakes, I will never break your heart. I’ll be right beside you as we chase our dreams together, and you will never have to wonder if I still care. I think about you all day long and when I'm not near you my mind is consumed with thoughts of being close to you again. When you’re near me I feel like everything in the world is right, and I know I don't have to ask for anything because as long I have you in my life I have everything I could ever want. All I want to do is spend the rest of my life making you as happy as you have made me.
I have so much to thank you for, so much more yet to give you, so many moments of my life yet to savor with you beside me. You are my love; to me, you ARE love. Jasmine, I love you, casue you bring out the best in me like no one else could do, thats why i'm by yourside thats why i love u. Best in me!
Posted at: 6/16/2009 01:32:00 AM
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Sorry I Hurt You
It is 2am in the morning and i am still moving here and there on my bed and thinking about what happen to us. I least expected it, I experienced the worst headache ever, all I could hear was my heart beating much faster than it ever has. I cursed my stars that night, as my expectation was so much greater, but it ended in a far different way that made my heart choke with tears of losing something I've always fought for
We all made mistakes not trying to understand each other, some words did hurt in some way and I guess we got carried away after all those arguments of whether truly I
understand u. Perhaps we need to give each other a chance to find out for ourself whether what we are trying to make each other understand the real intention of why we did that.
I know we both said so many things to each other that we least expected, trying to find out the truth about something, it's really hard and needs much time, but I guess I got carried away by saying those words to you. I know you said you can't forgive me, neither will you forget, but I know deep down in me, I've regretted saying those things to you and being the first guy to have said this to you also hurts me a lot. Whether you accept my apology or not *I'm truly sorry for my harsh and unpleasant words.*
Perhaps this is the chance for us to experience the passion in each other. The most important thing is that this is not our first love experience and one thing we must understand is that, in every relationship, whether old or new, we're sure to experience some problems but it's up to us to solve them. These are some of the things that might break our warm friendship and everything we are planning ahead of us. We need to understand each other and try to have the trust that will make this relationship work. I know you want this to work as much as I do and I still have my hopes up, never giving up on you. Let me tell you this thing that I believe in a real relationship: "It doesn't take beauty to make a relationship but the heart and the mind." I know what I've seen in you and have a special reason of choosing you.
For now, I know sorry is just a word, but for what it's worth I am very sorry for hurting you last evening. You caused me pains too but and I'm really confused about everything. I much want things to be stable and that you get all the time you need to make your decision. I love you so much and never will I think that I can forget you.
Hope to hear from you... I remain yours ....
Posted at: 6/02/2009 12:40:00 AM
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
I'm sorry jasmine
Look, that night was one of the worst nights we've ever had, and I just want you to know that no matter what happens, I will never stop loving you. I know I said some stuff that I dont mean to which in turn create such a mess, and I try my best to do right by you, and I will continue to do so.
Before that night, we had a great night together and now we are fighting, and we now have our relationship by a piece of string, and after our great night, I just can't let you slip away from me like that. I love you, and I hope you can forgive me for all my faults.
You are everything, and if you weren't then maybe I wouldn't have asked you to marry me, but I want you to be the one I spend the rest of my life with, so let's make this work, okay?
In the past I had always yearned for a relationship that is genuine and lasting, as for all these, I've found them in you! I'll make sure that the hand I'll be holding will forever be yours. Whether we're living in a fairy tale or a non-fairy tale world, I still believe there is such a thing as "Live happily ever after", and even if you don't believe it, let's make it happen in our relationship!
I really look forward to the day when the both of us will be walking down the red carpet hand in hand and in the name of love, we exchange marriage rings looking into each other eyes saying, "I do not regret for choosing you in my life."
Let's make this work out, Jasmine. I really want to be with you.
Posted at: 5/20/2009 01:59:00 AM
